It's Sunday and I know I've not posted lately. I'm instituting some changes, putting some lines back down, trying to get off this path I'm on. It's a dead end so honestly, what's the point? I'm missing out on life just sitting here waiting on the sidelines so...change. How am I going to do that, what am I going to change? I have no idea and if I'm honest with myself, I don't really want to do it. I don't want to change anything. But like all progress in life, it's not going to be easy or comfortable or enjoyable. It's just necessary.
The first thing I need to do is institute some boundaries between me and a few people. I've allowed myself to get drawn into things that I wasn't really comfortable with and now I sort of feel trapped. When you start erasing the lines you set for yourself, it's an uphill battle to gain that ground back. Feelings are going to get hurt, but it just has to be done. If these people are friends, they will understand and respect what I'm doing. I have to get my life back on track and this is one way I can do that.
Another big thing for me is to start taking control over my actions and stop making excuses for myself. Joining the gym was a big step for me in getting this done. With idle time, my mind gets to wondering and destructive decisions start to creep in. I'm hoping that whenever that happens, I will have the courage to make the choice to go to the gym instead of indulging in negative behavior patterns. I'm hoping that I can finally kick this smoking habit. Yes, I've been stressed out, both at home and at work, but that is just another excuse I tell myself. I need to do better, and I am, I just need that extra push to get over the finish line. I'm so close to kicking, and that's very encouraging. I know I can do this.
I know this hasn't been a typical post, but I needed to get this off my chest. At this point, you're probably thinking, "Hey, your titles was 'The Boy Wonder', what the heck does that have to do with this post?" Well, let me show you. Mom found this old photo yesterday and though I would like to hang it up in my room. Talk about a throw back. The date says April, 1992 so I was only six years old in this photo. Feel free to lambaste me in the comments.
Have a great week everyone! Later Days!
The first thing I need to do is institute some boundaries between me and a few people. I've allowed myself to get drawn into things that I wasn't really comfortable with and now I sort of feel trapped. When you start erasing the lines you set for yourself, it's an uphill battle to gain that ground back. Feelings are going to get hurt, but it just has to be done. If these people are friends, they will understand and respect what I'm doing. I have to get my life back on track and this is one way I can do that.
Another big thing for me is to start taking control over my actions and stop making excuses for myself. Joining the gym was a big step for me in getting this done. With idle time, my mind gets to wondering and destructive decisions start to creep in. I'm hoping that whenever that happens, I will have the courage to make the choice to go to the gym instead of indulging in negative behavior patterns. I'm hoping that I can finally kick this smoking habit. Yes, I've been stressed out, both at home and at work, but that is just another excuse I tell myself. I need to do better, and I am, I just need that extra push to get over the finish line. I'm so close to kicking, and that's very encouraging. I know I can do this.
I know this hasn't been a typical post, but I needed to get this off my chest. At this point, you're probably thinking, "Hey, your titles was 'The Boy Wonder', what the heck does that have to do with this post?" Well, let me show you. Mom found this old photo yesterday and though I would like to hang it up in my room. Talk about a throw back. The date says April, 1992 so I was only six years old in this photo. Feel free to lambaste me in the comments.
Have a great week everyone! Later Days!
Don't let these road blocks and detours in life be an inconvenience, instead let them lead you on a new path! You've got this , Boy Wonder!!
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